Innocence Stolen

The night is silent…

I can hear him breathing out.

The darkness calls him…

Surrounding dangers abound.

I hear him whisper…

He’s calling out to me.

He says come closer…

And I turn to run.

I see a blade flash, as it goes past.

I hear him laughing at me.

He’s just toying now…

Predator after prey.

My heart’s beating loud…

The sound gives me away.

I’m in the shadows now…

Silently I pray.

He finds me somehow…

I turn to run, he’s having fun.

I see a blade flash, as it goes past.

I hear him laughing at me.

I start to stumble, my hands fumble.

Soon he’s on top of me.

There’s nothing I can do…

My life is through.

Blade pierces my flesh…

I gasp for breath.

He can see my pain…

He enters again.

The world fades to black…

I feel him pulling back.

I see a blade flash, as it goes past.

I hear him laughing at me.

I start to stumble, my hands fumble.

Soon he’s on top of me.

Virginal white now red, I have bleed.

Innocence stolen from me.

This is the end…

I wish my life had never begun.

Broken I lie…

Wishing that I could die.

He leaves me now…

His damage done for now.

He’ll be back again…

Though I know not when.

I see a blade flash, as it goes past.

I hear him laughing at me.

I start to stumble, my hands fumble.

Soon he’s on top of me.

Virginal white now red, I have bleed.

Innocence stolen from me.

My heart crumbles, my mind tumbles.

A shell is all that’s left of me.

Hatred

I hate you all.
I hate each and every one of you.
I hate YOU, Society, and the way you look at me and others like me in fear.
You force us to hide in the shadows, worried what might happen if we are found.
You reject and spit on us, tearing at our cloths.
You mock us and beat us because we don’t fit into your world view.
You torture us in your attempts to force us to conform.
I hate you for that and I hate everything that you stand for.
You think that we are a disease, afraid we might spread.
You hate us.
You make us weep tears of pain and fear.
I hate you for that.

I hate YOU, Mom and Dad.
You couldn’t accept me as I am.
You turned your back on your daughter.
You blamed yourself because she was a freak.
You didn’t show her the love and acceptance that she yearned for.
You told her that she was wrong and needed to be locked away.
You turned a blind eye when the gun was in her hand.
You looked away, not trying to understand.
You made her kill a part of herself, doing irreparable harm.
You disgust me with what you did to me.
You probably think you were doing the right thing.
But you broke my heart.
You left me in the dark with nowhere to go.
You thought that I would bring shame for being the freak that I am.
You told me to forget what had happened and never speak of it again.
I can’t forget and I won’t, it consumes me.

Most of all, I hate YOU, God.
You who put me here
You who made me like this.
You hurt me in ways I can never describe with words.
You brought me into this like some sick joke.
It’s ALL your fault, every last bit.
I loathe you.
I despise you.
You set things into motion.
You wrecked my life before it even started.
I will never forget what you did to me.
You made me broken, an unfinished product.
You cast me down into a world of pain.
You know I hate you.
But you know what the worst thing of all is?
I know you don’t care. 
You cast me aside like an afterthought.
I hate you so much.
I hate YOU.

Intro

This blog is for me,
A way to be free.

Expressions I muse,
may be verbal abuse.

Sometimes they're crude,
and maybe even rude.

Hopefully to inspire,
strive for something higher.

As I try to pursue,
a passion to share with you.